hey~! hehe. an update! yay! uhmm, this will be a very dramatic or lets just say, hopeless entry.
hayy.. what can you say when you heard the word "past"? yeah, in connection of love. prang lhat mskit dba? prang the word, past, signifies negative, hurt or isolation. hehe. u`re w0ndrin' bkt prang nauso yata sken ngayon ang past. Prang nagflashback skin kninang chemistry ung first love ko. yeah. HIS days.and i figured out that, soobrang swerte ko nung mga time na yun. i mean, imagine that pretty girl, he waited her for all of his life. then, poof! sakto, transferee ako nun!somebody told me that if our relationship succeed, then, i will be he's partner until now.but those days, are soo weird. i mean, i don't even know how to fall in love completely.the word, LOVE is nothing to me. i don't even feel it in my core. until one day, na fall ako sa knya. but, it`s too late. his feelings for me faded away. and i can`t take it back anymore.that was exactly august 1, 2004. i don`t know if he still loves me that period. but to tell you honestly, in one week and 2 days, there are moments that should be treasured:
-ung inayos nia ung ribbon ko, mababaw pero sweet. place: gym. science time doing laboratory experiment.-xa ung nagsulat ng landline number ko sa autograph na cnasgutan ko. time: morning. unknown day.- nagrequest ng hug. place: saint joan. time: uwian.- first ever gift na natanggap ko sa knya! linagay pa nia sa locker ko un. 1 big card and a "you`re special" bottle from Blue Magic.- 2nd gift was, 3 lavender bracelets. ung isa, naputol! ='c. pero ung isang piece, nasa akin prin.- the song, FALLING by KEAHIWAI. naalala ko, nung nasa library ako, tas hinala nia ako pataas pralang iparinig ung kanta na un sa radyo.- pag gawa nmin nang banner ng saint joan for nutrition month. tinuruan nia ako pano magtanggal ngscotch tape sa naka roll na cartolina.- ung drawing nia na rose na may tag na, " i love you, darlene". una niang pinaalam na may gusto xa skin. time: parating c sir roland! mag MMAPEH.- ang pag explain nia sken na kung bkit nia ako mahal. place: canteen.- ung, pagkuha nia ng sapatos ko sa girls cr. naiwan ko kxe sa school. xa ung una kong tinakbuhan.nasira cellphone nia, dhil nabasa sa ulan.-yung pag congratulate nia sken. dhil na elect ako as first year level representative ng dance club.-isang napaka solemn na rainy day, sa phone, cnabi nia sken ung family secrets nila. until now,wala pang nakakaalam.-ung dinifend nia ako kay krizza. kxe inaaway ako ni krizza! tas pinagtanggol nia ako.
marami pa.. nakkpanghinayang no. ang dming ngang nssngayan. too bad, wrong timing xa.ang immature ko pa nung time na un. ndi ko pa naiintindihan lhat. meron xang cnbi skinnung nagbreak kmi, " sana ndi nlang ako ung nagturo sayo kung pano magmahal."hay.. " past is past" sbi nila. ndi na mbblik pa. we have our own lives. and we`re still living it. hehe.


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